yes, Kileigh and I went out this afternoon, leaving Korey at home. We did lunch and alittle shopping all by ourselves! no interruptions, no yelling for the bathroom, no screaming for soda! no sticking both fingers up his nose saying “funny”! as you are trying to eat!! no Dad getting antsy, sometimes wishing the earth would swallow up our table and we would miraculously appear at home, ahh the safety of home! i understand Dad’s nervousness… I am beyond that… I have had to get over it ( you know that “it” feeling, lol)

don’t misunderstand, I enjoy and relish the moments either out and about by myself, and I have had to force myself to get “out there”, or my time just with Kileigh, who so deserves and needs me but so often ends up on the sidelines, smiling and understanding but I know wistfully wishing there was many more hours to our days…

especially as we get nearer to the time, just about a year from now, when Kileigh will  be packing up and embarking on her next journey, on to the university, our time alone is even more dear and precious and damn it, I want it without feeling guilty about leaving Korey or what if he?  I do not my daughter, who I love dearly and has endured so much as much as she has learned from her brother, to feel that she wasn’t deserving of my time or she was pushed aside for the sake of her brother. no.

I will always make the time for her.

there is always time for my better half, kenny!

remember, life revolves around a family, not around the child with a disability…